SPEARHEADING CONSCIOUSNESS, ON ACCIDENT

ORDINARY UNCONSCIOUSNESS

“I’m humble enough to know that I’m not better than anyone, yet wise enough to know I’m different than the rest.”

– unknown

This post is a bit of a personal vent, but it contains important lessons, and I promise it ends on a better note.  I’m sure some of you will be able to relate.

In daily life, as I interact with strangers, unconscious people treat me badly all the time. Whenever I leave the safe space that is my flat, I am forced to deal with unconscious people’s energy, in daily interactions and more. People bring me emotional pain all the time with their energy, and I can tell they haven’t done their inner work. It is the typical unconsciousness that makes up most of humanity.

But I react from a place of kindness and higher consciousness, a place of softness. And if I’m being terribly honest, sometimes I stay nice only because I’m just completely shocked that anyone could treat another stranger the way I’ve been treated. I’m in a state of peace most of the time, so I tend to forget that I’m actually capable of acting the same way back at them, if I so wanted to. And most of the time, it’s not anything that drastic, so much as it is ordinary unconscious behavior.

THE UNCONSCIOUS SEA

People’s projection often comes from a place of hurt, insecurities, fear, or trauma. A place that they haven’t healed from, some kind of pain.  And from that place, they continue to see others through their dented lens and treat them accordingly.

It is unfair to those on the receiving end, because in an ideal world, someone else’s trauma shouldn’t be your problem. From the impatient post office worker who was shocked into treating me better because I stayed calm through his anger, to the seamstress who stopped trying to berate me once she realized I wasn’t like other customers who had gotten upset at her.

UNINTENTIONALLY SPEARHEADING CONSCIOUSNESS

And pretty much every time, without fail, these unconscious people realize they have acted out, or treated me wrong. They are shocked I react so consciously to their unconscious actions, they are shocked I can stay so calm and kind despite their behavior. And they feel guilty afterwards.

I can see it right in their faces, in their following actions. Some form of an apology in their expression, from a realization of just how wrongly they’ve treated me. And then they change their behavior. They change. Even if only for a moment in time, because they encountered me. Even if I’m left with a new scar each time. Even if I never get a true apology.

“Whoever got to experience you probably needed your light at the time.”

HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS

And this is how I’ve made an impact in the world around me, just by existing as someone more conscious.  Apparently, I get to make an impact whether I like it or not.  It honestly hurts.  I may be more conscious, but I’m still human. Events like these make me feel like I’m dying on the cross for every single unconscious person I encounter.

I feel like I’m taking hits from humanity that I don’t deserve to have happen to me. I’m tired of being the bigger person all the time. But I have no choice, because life requires me to interact with people.

AT YOUR SERVICE.

At least all these encounters are strengthening my boundaries and separation of “what is mine” from “what is theirs” in terms of emotions and energy. It’s good practice, if viewed positively.  And I will continue to do my best to view everything I go through as something that will benefit me.  If you’ve experienced something similar to this for much of your life because you have higher consciousness than those around you, just know that you’re not alone and the right people will come.  Similar energies will find each other, eventually.

I have another post from before my 1-year+ hiatus that dives into the biases people hold towards people who post spiritual content.  It’s such a frustrating thing to fight, but I’ll never sacrifice my authenticity to fit into a stranger’s mold.  The post, HAVING A PERSONALITY VS. BEING SPIRITUAL, can be read here.

With this, I’m finally back after a long 1-year + hiatus.  If you’ve gotten this far, thank you for tuning in. More to come.

 

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